Monday, November 26, 2012


I am sitting out a layover on my way back across the country. My heart is torn between wanting to be with Keith and Charlie, and wanting to be with my family in Washington. I don't really know how to put this past weekend into words. I go back and forth between missing Brooke, hurting for her wonderful parents, and feeling blessed and at peace. This song was sung at Brooke's funeral on Saturday. It has really touched me and given me a lot to ponder on. I can't stop thinking about it's message.

At the funeral my mom talked about Brooke's life and mentioned some of the things that, at the time, looked like trials, but now we see them as the huge blessings they are. Things like unemployment that gave family more time with Brooke. It begs the question: what if Brooke's passing is also "a blessing in disguise?" At times it is hard to see how it could be, but something confirms to my heart that at some point in the eternities we will look back and see all the blessings that came from it. We still miss her, we still feel the ache of loss, but the confirmation that God feels our pain and know why it had to be this way is a huge comfort.

I thought others may also benefit from the message of this song.

Blessings -Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise


branches 'n' twigs said...

Love this message and love you Katie.
We were in your Washington when we first heard this song last June. It takes my breath away but I too believe the message.
In the mean time we, like you, continue to pray for Sarah and Darren. Because...
"Mourning is one of the deepest expressions of pure love. The only way to take sorrow out of death is to take love out of life."
-Russel M. Nelson

Granny B Merrill said...

Oh Katie, we love you soooo much! When you came into our lives, we not only got a wonderful daughter-in-law, but have also been blessed with the sweet friendship of your family.You and your family will continue to be in our prayers! I can't type anymore because tears are getting in the way. As always, thanks for sharing!


Deb said...

What a beautiful song! It is so amazing how the Lord teaches us to hope and rely on Him through moments like this. I love you so much and continue to pray for you and your family.

Karen said...

Thank you for posting this song Katie. Our thoughts and prayers continue to be with you and your family!